I thought it would last forever

I know stupid
Foolish me
I invited myself in that first
Night
I let his claws into my heart
And still I fell in love

He never wanted
Me there
Not beside him
In the truck
Not cuddly on the train

Listen to me
I sound like a moony teenager
A woe is me little girl

I was young
I thought that love
Could brand its way onto his soul
That my name would spill
From his heart
That he would come
Back and let it be perfect

That he could fix me with pretty words

His compliments
Let me forget
Let me still dream

He wasn’t willing to let fear
Stop him I loved that brashness
That sense of justice
That left me living
With that little bit of him inside
But he is a loner

Promises fall from his tongue like honey
On a lovers lips
And say what I will
He did come back
We did still meet
He would still call me Marie
Only he used Marie
My secret
The only word I took
From my old life

And this piece of Logan
I have hidden
Is all I take of him now

Wind up memories of those first days

Five years
Of hanging onto an infatuation
He was right
I was a kid
To hang on when he
Of the endless promises
Even he would not say
I love you

I was like a storm
That says it will last forever
Or a heart
That breaks
And doesn’t lose pieces

Tied up in thorns
Riding fairy tales
And old clichés
My skin will not be cured
And it was not the obstacle
To his affection
I was

I think his indifference is worse than love or hate

It holds no emotion
It doesn’t covet
It doesn’t care
It doesn’t wish I would come back
And it cauterizes
My wounded heart

At least he never lied
In all those years
Though one small part
Of me wishes
That just once he had