Disclaimer: I am not the owner of the X-Men I am just borrowing them so don't sue me. I am not making any money off of them. I will return them I promise. This is a dark story about suicide. R rated.

Like a zombie, she moved to the dresser and turned on her tape recorder, not to hear music but for him to finally hear her.

'He has to know! He has to know! He does not want me like this. He knows they used me, raped me and sterilized me. They did not do this to Jean. Oh God, I can't have a family for him now.'

Jubilee threw herself face down on her bed and cried her heart out. Suddenly, she moved.

'I hate you. I hate you.' She yelled at herself as she looked in the mirror. Picking up a pair of scissors, she began to cut off all her hair. After she finished that, she looked around her room. She saw her bright shiny yellow coat. She attacked it with the scissors, ripping it to shreds while screaming in dismay. Then, she attacked everything in her room destroying it.

'I loved you. I wanted you so much. Now, I know I can never have you. You would never want someone so dirty, so ruined.' She screams out loud.

In the bottom drawer of her dresser, she found her utility knife he gave her. It is very sharp. He only gave her the best, except his love. She slashed her left wrist the right way, from wrist to elbow. But the cut was so deep that she could not use that hand to cut the other wrist. So, she placed the knife in her top dresser drawer and closed the drawer on it while she held it in place with her hip. She then slashed the right wrist.

'I failed you. I wasn't good enough to keep them from making me betray the X-Men. But I got you out. I'll leave now so that I won't be a dishonorable reminder for you.' Jubilee throws her head down and impales her slender white throat on the knife and sank to the floor dead.

The next morning at the X-Mansion

Howling. Howling of an animal beyond pain beyond care.

Scott had to shot him with almost his full optic blasts before they could get close enough to give him some extremely powerful tranks. They also had to put a collar and wrist restraints on him as well to help keep him from destroying everything around him.

"What in hell is going on?" Demanded Scott after they brought Logan down to the med lab.

"I do not know, my friend. But I assure you we will find out. Jean, help me please." Hank said.

Two hours later

"Scott both Jean and Logan are resting as comfortably as possible." Said a totally beaten Hank as he collapsed to the floor.

"What!?" Scott stated in confusion.

"Jean read Logan's mind to try and find out what happened. What she saw threw her into shock. But she said one name before she passed out. Emma."

"What did she see?" Scott asked.

"I didn't know, so I called Emma to see if she knew something. She almost mind blasted me when she answered the phone."

"What, for God's sake, is going on Hank!" Scott yelled having lost his patience.

"Jubilee killed herself!" Growled Hank. "I seems that she was not only kidnapped during OZT, but that she was tortured, raped and sterilized. She thought Logan knew what happened to her. And that he was getting rid of her when he just left her back at the school." Hank finished and began to cry.

"How did Logan find out. There were no calls this morning?" Scott said in a quiet voice.

"Emma sent him the message telepathically with full graphic pictures and the sound of her voice on the tape recording Jubilee did as a note. Emma did it right after she found Jubilee's body in her blood soaked room."

"What are we going to do?" "What can we do?" Scott asked as he closed his eyes tight to keep from crying too.

"I don't know."

Scott sank down on to the floor beside Hank and both just held each other as they cried.